Infinity @SamIO@tabletop.social

And I know I'm tooting my own horn here, but I need to make this point:

When I see somebody make these judgments at the header of their thread with the words "Literate" or "Elite" and so on, they can say goodbye to me.

This coming from somebody who would probably have been their favorite, if history serves.

So many thought this that when I responded to such a claim with a dozen links to the contrary, they felt personally attacked.

And I apologized for my tone then, but it frustrates me to see people look down on low-energy roleplay.

I used my influence as a staff member to bring attention into that subforum, and because of my weaknesses as somebody who is developmentally disabled, I don't think it worked out.

It was the beginning of a slow and unpleasant end of my relationship with Iwaku.

When I was staffed at IwakuRoleplay (and this is no excuse to say, "Oh okay we aren't like that", because I guarantee you there are folks like that in your community), I reviewed thousands of roleplays of all sorts of genres from a variety of ages, races, and abilities.

There was a section called Jump-In RPs where folks could enter into the scene casually without extensive setup. It was low-energy roleplay.

So many people thought this was a place new roleplays went to die.

When I write, it is a high-energy exercise. Because of anhedonia, I flake out a lot on my own motivation to do the things I love.

It costs so much from me that sometimes I don't want to do it anymore. It's unfun, it demotivates me, and I come away feeling overstimulated and agitated.

So when somebody criticizes me because something my character did was a poor choice when it was intended as a moment of wit, that frustrates me to the core.

This coming from somebody who puts in a lot of effort.

My boyfriend is dyslexic.

He is 23 years old and cannot spell or form conventionally-accurate sentences even with the aid of speech-to-text synthesis.

Forums are inaccessible to him because he is equated to twelve-year-olds trying out roleplay for the first time, and is told to find a chatroom to godmode in. Let's ignore the wildly inappropriate disdain for young roleplayers and focus on the result:

A masterful storyteller is being excluded because he cannot write as well as some others.

Hi, there.

I wanted to talk about something that's important to me.

A lot of forums have a community stigma against poor spelling and grammar in roleplay, and it's something a lot of folks emphasize with "Literate RPers Only".

See, here's the thing: One cannot be judgmental about roleplay. It is necessary to realize that not everybody is perfect and that includes oneself. We are creative and sometimes our expression isn't quite aligned with each other and that's okay.

It has to be okay.

Hello again, friends!

These past couple of days I've been really into Stellaris and I've found myself somewhat disappointed in the lack of narrative flexibility.

I'm thinking about doing something more analog that takes some cues from the NationStates genre, something I can play with my friends mostly via PbP.

I thought about rolling on tables and trading cards, things like that for game mechanics. This way my friends and I can have more control over content.

What are some of your thoughts?

Hey, friends!

How do y'all feel about dice rolling etiquette in TTRPGs?

Should players roll their own dice? Should storytellers hide rolls when players may be deceived? Is ownership of a roll determined by the person acting or the person initiating?

I hope it continues.

I hope you all hear more from me here.

Today, our boyfriend lead us through a world not unlike the one she did, with characters we had forgotten because we were afraid to reopen that chapter.

And we were not bitter, and we were not hurt.

We were laughing and playing, as roleplayers should.

And I am so, so happy that I had this experience.

Because regardless of her influence, I have been in a rut for many years.

And this was my first breath since a late night with a close friend one time during.

I said to him something to the effect that, "If you are angry at her, you cannot let her continue to control you by taking away the fruits of your imagination."

We shared so many middle school treehouse nights together creating worlds and stories and characters. Her involvement was so intimate that we could not resume without reliving her betrayal.

But then he proposed to me reviving it all in our own way. Making it ours, not hers.

He came out of it regretting so much of his history with her because he could no longer share his childhood fantasies with me, because the three of us had been friends so long and everything he had made was intertwined with hers.

I am still bitter after all these years. But then the other day I told him something that I think he has really taken to heart, and I am seeing his change rub off on me.

I'm very beside myself because one of them and I have had an especially hard time in the past couple of years due to an ex-girlfriend cheating on the both of us with a very aggressive person who lived in our house with the three of us for several years.

When first she and I agreed to close the loop and share each other and not just our mutual boyfriend, it was the morning after all three of us roleplayed in a not dissimilar setting.

Hiya, folks.

Just finished roleplaying with my boyfriends and for the first time in a long time it wasn't hard. I went all afternoon and I felt so refreshed at the end it was /rewarding/. This, for me, is a growth.

Hi again, friends!

I was just thinking about something I drew up for a certain Crystal Gem Rebellion RP I was doing with one of my friends a few months ago. I'm rather proud!

Meet Nephrite ε85A-BH, a function of the White Diamond Authority whose personal experiences led them to defect to the Crystal Gems.

If you'd like, you can read their complete RISUS character sheet here: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1Yo6GvxxnE4yV-3s_8ik_pCR3IqFoUb0m/view

Hello, friends.

I'm having one of those gentle late nights where everything is emotionally-charged and inspiring.

I napped in the middle of the day, I felt so sleepy, and now I'm probably going to be up well into the early am hours.

I'd love some company thinking about tone and narrative in roleplay; sometimes I want to write that detached atmosphere of an unintelligible radio but still have some real stuff going on.

To be fair though I'm not feeling very well, so I suppose im just babbling.

Hello again, friends!

Tonight I found my interest in Hc Svnt Dracones revitalized by some particularly nice music (HSD is an RPG set in a furry post-human capitalist solar system, btw).

I was thinking about storytelling for some of my friends, but I'm not sure I'm ready to meet that challenge again yet.

I would very much like to hear some of your ideas, though! Maybe something you folks say will give my peers and I something exciting to think about.

I would very much like to write more about robots who are also people but are in no measure of our experiences at all human.